Michelle happens to be a name of remarkable strength. Michelle has honestly been the most magnetic name to show up in my inner circle.
My middle-sister is Michelle (Ambiance). She, by the way, came over last night and single-handedly boosted our van so that eye could go to O'Reilly's to have the battery and alternator tested. Turned out to be a loose bolt.
My first BFF was Michelle in Harrisburg circa 1980. We used to sneak and ride our bikes to the back of our apartment complex and pick catkins from the pussy willow trees that grew near the stream.
Michelle Lake was a BFF in junior high who split a boyfriend with me, hooked me up with another favorite puppy-lover and somehow drew her whole family into my life over time (her mother-the first librarian eye knew). We even met back up in college (freshman year).
There's the Michelle eye fell for a few weeks ago in Dalton that immediately became a sister-friend for life. And there are others. Michelle Obama is no exception. Just recently eye have found myself three close degrees in reach. "Eye ain't braggin' or nu'in", but that powerful energy must be acknowledged. It makes me all fuzzy to see her so adorned with attention, admiration and adoration.
So much has transpired since the site went down a few weeks ago. You know already, financial difficulty. Yep. It's true. Still broker that a bomb joke.
But here we meet again. Handful of new tracks in the can & all is lovely.
1. 227-SPIT (Prod. by Count Bass D) 2. Music For My Mother Dear (Prod. by J. Rawls) 3. The Write Way Remix (Prod. by Count Bass D featuring H2O & Lee Green) 4. You Gotsta (Prod. by AmDex featuring H2O) 5. Day Lite (Prod. by AmDex featuring H20)
Meanwhile...romantically, eye have stepped out with another. Outside of my relationship, eye am afraid. & yes! It's causing major eruptions.
Eye love Mic.
We had a fling last week that might lead to something more permanent. Happiness? Gotta find out! & know that eye have always gone out of my way to distinguish what eye do as a writer as completely different than the category where critics place me. F.E.M.C.E.E. (What up, Starhh!) But to deny this chemistry, would make me born dead. & trust me. After a week AWAY, alive is no jive. THIS IS LIVING!
As for Mic, eye have known Mic for as long as eye can remember. Mrs. Dora Berkley (Sylvan Street Baptist Church pianist) had her way with me every Saturday night before Junior Choir Sunday in order to insure that my solo's were kneading halo's. Mic was always hangin around her organ.
It's all so coming to a head. My name has been in print on records since '95; voice recorded since Dwight Spit/Day By Day in 2001. Mic must be highly regarded as an old friend who has always shown up at just the right time. September 12, 2001 - out with Mic. After the Twin Towers conspiracy, relief & letdown was on my mind. For those of you who know the real goods, remember that eye almost lost...well, took my own life weekend prior. Whew! What an ordeal!
So...with all of these children & grown man kid running around me all day, eye lost focus. My vision became smudged & blurred. Stepping away from my life allowed me to see it for what it is, not what eye was imagining.
Shawne Bailey... H20... Kid Captain Coolout... MY DRUNK UNKA... YOU SAVED MY LIFE! GIVE THANKS!
For as long as eye can remember, Post-its have been clocking my dedicated dollars. Generic will not do. Stickies has to be one of my strongest addictions.
Eye use Apple stickies program faithfully. Then slap pink hearts filled with lyrics all over Macxie in additon. Small & large squares on walls, mirrors, desktops and cabinets. Multi-color notepads strategically placed all over the house for in my face to-do reminders. Sometimes eye even sticky notes onto my laminated organizing list.
This might just be out of hand, my friends. Just a tad bit obsessive. But for good reason. People get so frustrated when they borrow my laptop because the notes are everywhere but on the screen & keys. After an initial jolt of guilt, eye have to remember, they are borrowing MY computer...deal with it.
Wonder if Post-it digital notes are worth the investment. Thinking about at least trying it before taking the plunge. Eye know myself enough to know that it will probably be added simultaneously with my paper treats instead of using it to truly eliminate & streamline all of the clutter.
How long has it been since eye have had a nap? Months eye tell you. Months! It's rare that the night even permits sound sleep. But times are a changing. Getting better by the moment. Wondering if eye should pursue graduate school. Thinking about New Mexico, New York or Cali. Must be looking for something more liberal than what eye know. Fo sho'!
Talk about shook! As much as the internet is access to all information, sometimes it can be too much. As much as eye love knowledge (Nolij was my first MC name; don't get it twisted), there are moments when not knowing may feel like a better option.
After job hunting for teaching work on the internet, eye was led astray by links, as usual. Eventually eye ended up at this article about a man wrongly charged with murder on his way to death row when charges were miraculously dropped.
Whoa! This is my...first real boyfriend! Death-row? Murder? What the bleep! This dude got me in so much mess at school & at home it wasn't even funny. We lived together at a motel for all of two weeks when eye was 16. My only visit to planned parenthood was because eye was scared that playing grown up was going to make me a teenage mother. What the bleep? Now be mindful that my Mom despised this dude (maybe that's not a strong enough word, but for lack of a better it will do), but my hardheaded Self was entranced by the good hair & green eyes. The relationship was very rocky. But that all said, would eye wish him to death-row? Hell, no. HELL NO!
Apparently he's on a better path these days. Above is a picture of him from August 2008...red shirt. Yeah!
We ALL lead Jerry Springer lives folks. Ask Michael Eric Dyson...
Until Today!: Daily Devotions for Spiritual Growth and Mind by Iyanla Vanzant has been my A.M. reading for much of 2008 (Thanks, Sis). Having followed much of her career in print and on television, her "IT FACTOR" never before stood out to me; even to the point of passing up free and paid chance to see her in person. Timing really is everything!
"Game can only be gotten by one who can get it."
eye quit at the same time eye acquit for charges accrued during this amazing relationship sharp nit-pick wit resonates mostly hate, rare elation please accept this measly poem as sufficient resignation
With all of the music-related reality shows, there is no excuse for anyone trying to break into the business to be ignorant about "a day in the life". Even with the scripted scenes & editing, thick game is coming from the industry vets turned actors. Watching these shows (free online), has really helped me examine my own strengths & weaknesses as both an artist & executive. Twenty minute weekly tutorials in how to consistently step my game up can only serve me well. In order to maximize my gain, eye don't buy into the drama with the characters much, but watch the movers that really count - the moguls & henchmen. It's not all about the entertainment, but the edutainment. Try it, you might like it! For starters (in no particular order):
1. I Want to Work for Diddy 2. Luke's Parental Advisory 3. Run's House 4. Keyshia Cole's The Way It Is 5. DMX:Soul of a Man
Pantherhigh.com has connected the link to those eye loved back in the day; Sherrie Betts, Ilya Clay. Some are gay, many married straight. Some profiles say happy, some devoid of pics. The internet - SICK! Relationships are now forever, never to miss a step. Bet!
Preteen-dom has hit our home, as our preschooler gets closer to little big boy age and further away from the baby stage. Hallelujah! Another chance to reflect on our blessings. Night has come the last evenings before eye have had a chance to even rest my size 10's, but in the end, surely it's worth the sacrifice. One thing is for sure, the love that they give Mama Olee is beyond measure. & eye need it!!! Mothering, my pleasure!
These days, the Baby Sun's compete for every infinite moment of Mama's waking when we're alone without the larger stars to distract their incessant frenzy. Tonight, they are in opposition to anything that moves me - mop included. Numerous failed attempts to sit them still led me to finally encourage their natural busyness. Music came to mind as an aid, so eye frantically searched my iTunes for a winner. "Eureka! Let's try Sesame Street."
Two songs displayed, "Sesame Street (Theme)" & "1-2-3 Sesame Street" (Stevie Wonder).
After more than half an hour of repeat play, the lads are still entranced & singing as if they haven't heard this pairing ever before. As a benefactor of Jim Henson's brillance, my foyer tile & bathroom linoleum shine the Pine Sol glow. The smell of clean pervades our dwelling space. Fresh!
Ole' E[arth] anxiously prepares to welcome Jupiter into our evening (9:30 pm Central).
When an inflatable bed deflates around your rest, waking on the jungle floor can be a very stiff experience. The stress impressed upon my deltoids might best be massaged out with meat tenderizer & cleaver. Call the butcher. Call the baker. Call the mattress maker. Mr. Sealy, please posture me better - a lucky summer six will suffice!
eye rip raps; on same microphones poetry.
eye balance formality with artistic integrity.
eye close deals, book shows, then pen prose.
eye cook meals before heading to post bills .
eye read to the youth; record to the beat.
eye flow, consult, lecture, teach & speak.
eye blog & tweet; send messages to senders.
eye fool to the internet; slave to lender.
eye write for the love.
eye fight for the write.
eye am a writer.