ETHICS & DUCKETS DO NOT MIX
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SO.
13 years ago
Monday, June 20, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
WHERE MY DADDY??
31 Years of not having a father & one would think by now that eye would be used to this. Over it. For the first time in 31 years, eye actually grieved over my loss. Usually, the day of recognition/remembrance comes & goes without even a long pause to face the absence. But this particular space was seemingly marked by gloom & loneliness. Even though my husband is the best father that eye have ever known...Even though my "Papa" has been consistent, always working hard to overcompensate for my void...even though my late Granny would always remind me to be happy with the love & attention that she had always shown as opposed to dwelling on the "negative"...even still, this year was different. Different is good. Right??? Right is relative. This feels like progress has been made within. To come out of denial is ALWAYS a good thing. But as my first therapist told me years ago, it's only past denial when things get REALLY funky.
Do eye wish that eye had a father? Yes. & eye say "had a father" because the truth of the matter is that eye do not. Eye used to say, "It's not that eye don't have a father, it's just that eye don't know him." Bullshit. EYE DO NOT HAVE A DAD FOLKS. NEVER HAD. & for the first time eye can admit that. For so long eye have carried this burden..as if eye were an evil child who did not deserve a equal start. Like maybe my baby spit up scared him off or something. Or like maybe he thought eye was a lazy person because eye slept all of the time in those early days. Over the years, eye have convinced self that this was a luxury to which eye was undeserving. Bull shit (eye say that as a Taurian accuracy & not profanity).
HI DAD
HI DADDY
HI POPPA
HI POP
IF YOU ARE READING THIS, DO NOT DISMISS AS FLIP-FLOP ANTICS. MUCH OF MY LIFE HAS BEEN A TRAVESTY DUE TO YOUR COWARDICE. EYE DO NOT KNOW EXACTLY WHY YOU ARE NOT HERE, BUT IF YOU ARE BREATHING THEN THE OPPORTUNITY IS YOURS. DO NOT WAIT UNTIL EYE BLOW UP. MY POPULARITY IS INCREASING EVERDAY. BUT, YOUR LOVE IS THE LACKING THAT WEIGHS ON MY SEEDS - A BASIC NEED. PLEASE HEED MY INVITE & EXCITE MY LIFE WITH YOUR PRESENCE. YOU HAVE 4 GRANBABIES THAT WANT TO KNOW YOU BEFORE THE ESSENCE. THAT IS, IF YOU ARE STILL ON EARTH. THANK YOU FOR MY BIRTH. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME STRONG. TAKE THIS CHANCE TO RIGHT YOUR WRONG. WHEREVER YOU ARE...WHOEVER.
SINCERELY,
ORIANA LEE (JACKSON) FARRELL
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31 Years of not having a father & one would think by now that eye would be used to this. Over it. For the first time in 31 years, eye actually grieved over my loss. Usually, the day of recognition/remembrance comes & goes without even a long pause to face the absence. But this particular space was seemingly marked by gloom & loneliness. Even though my husband is the best father that eye have ever known...Even though my "Papa" has been consistent, always working hard to overcompensate for my void...even though my late Granny would always remind me to be happy with the love & attention that she had always shown as opposed to dwelling on the "negative"...even still, this year was different. Different is good. Right??? Right is relative. This feels like progress has been made within. To come out of denial is ALWAYS a good thing. But as my first therapist told me years ago, it's only past denial when things get REALLY funky.
Do eye wish that eye had a father? Yes. & eye say "had a father" because the truth of the matter is that eye do not. Eye used to say, "It's not that eye don't have a father, it's just that eye don't know him." Bullshit. EYE DO NOT HAVE A DAD FOLKS. NEVER HAD. & for the first time eye can admit that. For so long eye have carried this burden..as if eye were an evil child who did not deserve a equal start. Like maybe my baby spit up scared him off or something. Or like maybe he thought eye was a lazy person because eye slept all of the time in those early days. Over the years, eye have convinced self that this was a luxury to which eye was undeserving. Bull shit (eye say that as a Taurian accuracy & not profanity).
HI DAD
HI DADDY
HI POPPA
HI POP
IF YOU ARE READING THIS, DO NOT DISMISS AS FLIP-FLOP ANTICS. MUCH OF MY LIFE HAS BEEN A TRAVESTY DUE TO YOUR COWARDICE. EYE DO NOT KNOW EXACTLY WHY YOU ARE NOT HERE, BUT IF YOU ARE BREATHING THEN THE OPPORTUNITY IS YOURS. DO NOT WAIT UNTIL EYE BLOW UP. MY POPULARITY IS INCREASING EVERDAY. BUT, YOUR LOVE IS THE LACKING THAT WEIGHS ON MY SEEDS - A BASIC NEED. PLEASE HEED MY INVITE & EXCITE MY LIFE WITH YOUR PRESENCE. YOU HAVE 4 GRANBABIES THAT WANT TO KNOW YOU BEFORE THE ESSENCE. THAT IS, IF YOU ARE STILL ON EARTH. THANK YOU FOR MY BIRTH. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME STRONG. TAKE THIS CHANCE TO RIGHT YOUR WRONG. WHEREVER YOU ARE...WHOEVER.
SINCERELY,
ORIANA LEE (JACKSON) FARRELL
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Monday, June 13, 2005
***EDITORIAL
***PEACE.
Howdy folks! Hopefully all is well!
Just a few days ago, I joined about 150+ women who were coordinated by the Office of Intercultural Affairs at Vanderbilt University to discuss the issues of race,religion & gender. Together, we viewed a film by Shakti Butler, “The Way Home” – what a powerful film!!!
We ate. We shared. We laughed. We cried. But most importantly, we joined as one unified voice in the name of humanity. What an overwhelming event to have this many different types of beautiful women from various cultures & social backgrounds gathered for a common purpose.
We at In The Know greatly value community togetherness & unity. We cross all demographics & smudge all socio-economic lines. We hope that the listings we compile help educate you about events that you may not have known about otherwise. Please take advantage of what the world of arts & entertainment has to offer in your area.Thank you for supporting our service.
Have a prosperous journey!
Oriana lee
Editor-in-chief
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DOCUMENTING BLACK HISTORY
This day, June 13, 2005, has been a historical day in Black history.
1. MICHAEL JACKSON VINDICATED
2. ANTI-LYNCHING APOLOGY RESOLUTION
3. "MISSISSIPPI BURNING" TRIAL JURY SELECTION
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***PEACE.
Howdy folks! Hopefully all is well!
Just a few days ago, I joined about 150+ women who were coordinated by the Office of Intercultural Affairs at Vanderbilt University to discuss the issues of race,religion & gender. Together, we viewed a film by Shakti Butler, “The Way Home” – what a powerful film!!!
We ate. We shared. We laughed. We cried. But most importantly, we joined as one unified voice in the name of humanity. What an overwhelming event to have this many different types of beautiful women from various cultures & social backgrounds gathered for a common purpose.
We at In The Know greatly value community togetherness & unity. We cross all demographics & smudge all socio-economic lines. We hope that the listings we compile help educate you about events that you may not have known about otherwise. Please take advantage of what the world of arts & entertainment has to offer in your area.Thank you for supporting our service.
Have a prosperous journey!
Oriana lee
Editor-in-chief
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DOCUMENTING BLACK HISTORY
This day, June 13, 2005, has been a historical day in Black history.
1. MICHAEL JACKSON VINDICATED
2. ANTI-LYNCHING APOLOGY RESOLUTION
3. "MISSISSIPPI BURNING" TRIAL JURY SELECTION
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Friday, June 10, 2005
INNER SPACE (IN HER SPACE)
It has been a loooooong time since eye have been hooked on an Internet service. Probably not since '95, during the genesis of the web explosion. But hey...the rules remain the same still this day.
It is bugging me out how many people are listed. It is a trip to see just how many people eye know are faithful users that have not bothered to even talk me into being a part of this networking movement. For the last 6 months prior to April, eye have ignored the "invites" that have periodically shown up in my inbox suggesting that eye join. For whatever reason, it just never even crossed my mind to check into it. Then, once eye did join, eye simply did what most "typical" people do. Eye registered my name, yet eye failed to do anything more to make myself accessible or marketable. But June has brought about a shift in circumstance.
Locating "friends" has honestly been more fun than eye have had in quite some time. & what's ironic to death is that sooooooo many of my friends & colleagues are in the mix. Where have eye been? Am eye just getting old? Is it that eye do not get out enough. It does feel as though the walls are coming in on me at times...
This thing is great...space & time are nots. This space between us is so much smaller than we sometimes recognize. & greater all the same.
Signing off...
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It has been a loooooong time since eye have been hooked on an Internet service. Probably not since '95, during the genesis of the web explosion. But hey...the rules remain the same still this day.
It is bugging me out how many people are listed. It is a trip to see just how many people eye know are faithful users that have not bothered to even talk me into being a part of this networking movement. For the last 6 months prior to April, eye have ignored the "invites" that have periodically shown up in my inbox suggesting that eye join. For whatever reason, it just never even crossed my mind to check into it. Then, once eye did join, eye simply did what most "typical" people do. Eye registered my name, yet eye failed to do anything more to make myself accessible or marketable. But June has brought about a shift in circumstance.
Locating "friends" has honestly been more fun than eye have had in quite some time. & what's ironic to death is that sooooooo many of my friends & colleagues are in the mix. Where have eye been? Am eye just getting old? Is it that eye do not get out enough. It does feel as though the walls are coming in on me at times...
This thing is great...space & time are nots. This space between us is so much smaller than we sometimes recognize. & greater all the same.
Signing off...
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Thursday, June 9, 2005
SHARE SPACE WITH ME
For a while eye have been signed up to the ever so popular, My Space.com, but only last night did it officially become a vice in my life. Dwight hooked me up with all of the necessary details for my profile, and Oriana lee is more than just a name with a pending photo. What fun! So many of my industry & personal friends are already a part. You know it's not like me to be all late getting up on something. Hit me up:
Check me out!
Get ready for the weekend: www.writehanded.com/listings.html
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For a while eye have been signed up to the ever so popular, My Space.com, but only last night did it officially become a vice in my life. Dwight hooked me up with all of the necessary details for my profile, and Oriana lee is more than just a name with a pending photo. What fun! So many of my industry & personal friends are already a part. You know it's not like me to be all late getting up on something. Hit me up:
Check me out!
Get ready for the weekend: www.writehanded.com/listings.html
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Monday, June 6, 2005
IN THE KNOW EDITORIAL
So...how’s everything? All is well here, for the most part. Hopefully, things willget much better due to the breadth of this week’s listings. Traditionally, we have focused on arts & entertainment specific events. But as a part of offering a complete service, we realize that it is in our best interest to touch on as many aspects of daily life as possible. Considering that, we have added listings that may prove to be beneficial for a number of reasons.
Our hosting server has also changed, which has contributed to a great number of quirks & glitches, but know that we appreciate you all hanging in there with us. If you have not yet reconfirmed your subscription, we now ask that you do so. Due to this change, last week’s mailing was delayed. We do not anticipate any more problems, so we hope to now move forward with the consistency that you have come to expect of In The Know.
Please get out & experience the offerings of your locale. Plan well. Expect great things to happen to those of you who are willing to make things happen.Thank you for your continued support!
So...how’s everything? All is well here, for the most part. Hopefully, things willget much better due to the breadth of this week’s listings. Traditionally, we have focused on arts & entertainment specific events. But as a part of offering a complete service, we realize that it is in our best interest to touch on as many aspects of daily life as possible. Considering that, we have added listings that may prove to be beneficial for a number of reasons.
Our hosting server has also changed, which has contributed to a great number of quirks & glitches, but know that we appreciate you all hanging in there with us. If you have not yet reconfirmed your subscription, we now ask that you do so. Due to this change, last week’s mailing was delayed. We do not anticipate any more problems, so we hope to now move forward with the consistency that you have come to expect of In The Know.
Please get out & experience the offerings of your locale. Plan well. Expect great things to happen to those of you who are willing to make things happen.Thank you for your continued support!
Thursday, June 2, 2005
"R U ACTING WEIRD?"/"R U ACTING FUNNY?"
Please reconfirm your subscription to IN THE KNOW. Sure - its an extra step which some of you may consider a hassle, but just for me this one time. This server business is becoming slightly annoying. It s time for me to change hosts, I think. Always some glitch with my current provider. A friend of ours has become rich from hosting "sites". We should probably go & fool with some of his p>business. Anyway, in the meantime, we will make the best of the situation. Please click the link folks. It will take just a second to complete.
Why do we act so strange over the nothings in life? Some of the simplest circumstances bring out the most neglected emotional behavior. Most of us are terribly dysfunktional & have no clue even. It tickles me when people speak of the "dysfunctional family", as though they are not an extension of one themselves. The lies that we tell our self...
Speaking of...
Is anyone else a fan of the 2nd Kelli Price record? Chord explosion!!!
"The musicians...they just dumpdumpdumpdumpdumpdudump."
Much of the content is simplistic, but the music makes all the difference. Trust me. Givin' it a spin right now...
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Please reconfirm your subscription to IN THE KNOW. Sure - its an extra step which some of you may consider a hassle, but just for me this one time. This server business is becoming slightly annoying. It s time for me to change hosts, I think. Always some glitch with my current provider. A friend of ours has become rich from hosting "sites". We should probably go & fool with some of his p>business. Anyway, in the meantime, we will make the best of the situation. Please click the link folks. It will take just a second to complete.
Why do we act so strange over the nothings in life? Some of the simplest circumstances bring out the most neglected emotional behavior. Most of us are terribly dysfunktional & have no clue even. It tickles me when people speak of the "dysfunctional family", as though they are not an extension of one themselves. The lies that we tell our self...
Speaking of...
Is anyone else a fan of the 2nd Kelli Price record? Chord explosion!!!
"The musicians...they just dumpdumpdumpdumpdumpdudump."
Much of the content is simplistic, but the music makes all the difference. Trust me. Givin' it a spin right now...
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